Kaylin Doggendorf at home in the last known photograph ever taken of her.
RIDINGER LAKE â The Doggendorfs, Jason and Linbeth draw on daughters Tiana, 12, and Dreama, 10 for strength.
They are also buoyed by the support of their inner circle of friends and family as they struggle each day to honor the life of their murdered daughter while awaiting, with dread, the trial of her accused killer.
Jason and Linbeth were surrounded by friends in March when police told them the dreaded news â their eldest daughter, 14-year-old Kaylin, was found murdered across the county line in Kosciusko County.
âWe have a tremendous amount of community and family and friends that are supporting us and understand,â said Linbeth through tears.
âA lot of them, their daughters were like sisters to her. Weâre working on setting up a little club called Club Kaylin.â
The victim was an 8th-grader at Whitko Middle School.
Her disappearance, followed closely by the announcement that sheâd been raped and murdered, rippled through the school like a tsunami, wreaking havoc with the fragile emotions of a shocked student body.
âThe fact that she was missing first, there was kind of that anticipatory feel to the whole situation,â remembers Jerry Klausing, Whitko Middle School Principal.
âSo we moved into it gradually instead of finding out right away that sheâd been murdered.â
Klausing said when all hope faded with the announcement that Kaylinâs body had been discovered, âit was somber here, disheartening and a huge letdown.â
According to Linbeth, the ripple effect that began in March with Kaylinâs murder has moved up to Whitko High School, where the victim would have been a freshman this past fall.
âJust by talking to parents and some of the girls, theyâre having an awful time up at the high school,â said Linbeth, adding that she thought the middle schoolâs handling of the tragedy when it happened was spot-on.
âThe middle school has done a tremendous job of supporting us and the kids and squashing any situation that comes up,â she said, pointing out that Kaylinâs sisters have had some emotional difficulties dealing with the death.
âIâm so grateful for what theyâre doing to help.â
Klausing said when Kaylin went missing, the feeling of dread was stronger in the minds of the staff and faculty.
âI think the adults here had a more realistic idea of how it would turn out because adolescent children always tend to have this idea that theyâre bulletproof and when the reality hits that this 14-, 15-year-old friend was taken off the face of the earth, itâs shocking to them,â he said.
During the first school day following word of Kaylinâs death, Klausing said the school âhad a full contingent of counselors here that day.â
For parents who lose a young child, grief cannot be overcome without the tools of healing, and the Doggendorfs say those tools come in all forms.
âThe biggest driving force is the other two kids,â said Jason.
The couple also hold dear to those memories of a child that was described by many as mature beyond her years while remaining a âtypical teenager.â
âActually, weâd been fighting with her that day, but nothing major,â Linbeth said.
âShe had wanted to ride her bicycle to a friendâs house and it was five miles away and we were like âthatâs a little far to ride your bike on a school day. So letâs wait until the weekend and see how long it takes.â
âShe was mad at us, but the last time I saw her, she had come up to do her chores, her laundry, and was putting the laundry in the dryer and I said good night to her.â
Although the final hours the Doggendorfs spent with their daughter were overshadowed by typical parent-teenager friction, Linbeth said the weeks and months leading up to her death seemed to be full of special moments that, even today, provide yet another âhealing tool.â
âThe previous month or so sheâd gotten to do some overnights that she normally wouldnât do,â said Linbeth.
âSheâd gotten to visit people in the family and it was almost like she got to say goodbye to a lot of people in her life.â
Not long before her death, Kaylin and her mother burned the midnight oil, on a school night, no less, talking about a myriad of subjects.
âI knew it was a school night, but we stayed up late,â Linbeth remembered with a smile. âShe got to talking about things like what kind of music she liked to listen to and things like that and when your 14-year-old daughter is in the mood to talk itâs hard not to.â
One ritual the two shared was shopping at Wal-Marts both in Warsaw and Columbia City.
âThe Wal-Mart trips were pretty hard at first (after Kaylinâs death),â Linbeth said.
If Tiana and Dreama top the list of Jason and Linbethâs most helpful tools for overcoming personal tragedy, how they parent their two surviving daughters is certainly located in the same drawer of their massive âhealing tool box.â
âThere are times when you get to thinking, âis there anything we could have done differently?ââ said Jason.
âBut smothering them, in my opinion, is what could drive them to run away.â
âIâm not as worried about them as much during the day as I would have expected to be,â said Linbeth, âbut at night, I am really paranoid about where theyâre at and who theyâre with and what theyâre doing.â
If the Doggendorfs can offer any advice to parents, they said it would be to always live in the moment with your children, not forgetting to let them know how you feel.
âYou donât realize how much theyâre loved until theyâre gone,â said Linbeth.
And while they endeavor each day to do their best with Tiana and Dreama, they take solace in the knowledge that their daughter left an indelible impression with everyone she encountered.
âShe seemed like a very wholesome young lady to me,â said Klausing.
âShe was becoming this amazing young woman that we were so proud of,â said Linbeth.